Or at least that’s what the little voice inside my head keeps telling me. You know the one. The supposed voice of reason whose positive intention is to show you all of the possible outcomes of any given situation so you can stay safe and choose the best (and safest) course of action. My husband calls it the ‘what-if’ game. He says that I play it a lot. I can’t help it. With each thought that enters my head the little voice pipes up with a list of ‘what ifs’. It’s exhausting. My friend Sandi calls it the lizard brain but I’ve also heard it being called a gremlin or inner critic. Whatever the label, I’m sure you’ve all experienced it at one point or another in your life.
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Each and every time I sit down to write – be it a blog post, an article or marketing material – a little voice pipes up and says “I can’t write.” As if that weren’t bad enough, I actually believed it for many years of my life. Those 3 words would stop me dead in my tracks. Feeling defeated before I even started I would agree with that little voice and stop writing the moment the pen hit the paper. I’d quit out of sheer frustration. It just wasn’t worth the internal battle… until now.
I made the decision to push through the fear and listen to my heart instead of my head. I took a giant leap forward and started this blog, making a promise to the world that I will write. I declared this truth to my family, friends, clients and colleagues and agreed to share my personal journey towards pregnancy and motherhood… publicly and in writing. It’s scary but I’m committed. I’m giving myself permission to publish less than perfect posts, to write from the heart and to show up authentically (even if that means rocking the boat). I want to make this a fun and enjoyable experience!
I hope that you will join me on this journey of self discovery, personal development and preparation for pregnancy. I believe that somewhere, deep down inside of me is a writer. I just need to nurture and cultivate it’s growth.